Another cosplay event

I went to another cosplay event here in Angeles City, Pampanga with my two cousins this time! I didn't cosplay though. Just attended the event for being me. And I got a little bored. Maybe because i just came from a con in Pasay City, Manila. an event called VOCAFUSION. Damn it. Vocaloids everywhere. Didn't really interest me at looking at those similar looking cosplays that time.

Anyway, surprisingly kuya Jon, the anime club's president, welcomed me in the Robinsons mall with a hug. I thought he dislikes hugs especially from girls? oh well it didn't came from me anyway. Met some members, saw some cosplayers. They are not that many though. I guess i am expecting something like the vocafusion event xD except less vocaloids.

Stayed in that event with Vince's older brother, Lance. He was the one who used my camera the whole event since i am lazy to take pictures and because the cosplayers really didn't interests me. There were some games held in that event. Surprisingly they were giving an album of Parokya ni Edgar, Spongecola and Kamikazee as prizes! It made me want to win a game but a part of me doesn't want to join. So i just watched everyone participating some games and win those albums.

At the end of the event, Lance bought me a hat of my choice! O_O i chose Super Mario's hat! because Luigi's hat we're all sold out :( He told me he wanted to buy me something since we rarely get to see each other in school.

I gladly thanked Lance for that!! Then i somehow received Kamikazee's album, Long Time Noisy from Vince. Maybe because i won't stop spazzing about Kamikazee and bluhs. :))

Lance said goodbye to me and i reunited to my cousins who i left behind :))

THEN I SAW THIS CUTE BUNNY IN A DEPARTMENT STORE THAT REMINDED ME OF JOHN! of course i bought it!

I am going to remove those pink thingies on the bunny..

i was being john here.. sort of.

DUUURP I AM BALD

I am going to tell you guys what happened to my trip to Manila next time! ...maybe.

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i want to disappear to disappear disappear right now ayoko na magkaroon ng kaibigan para hindi ako nasasaktan napakaswapang ko ayoko na magkaroon ng kaibigan para hindi narin sila nahihirapan sa akin ayoko na ayoko na mas madalas pa akong nasasaktan kapag meron akong kaibigan masaya rin magkaroon ng kaibigan pero ayoko ng nasasaktan mas maganda na walang kaibigan para hindi na ako nasasaktan at hindi na ako liligaya mas maganda na iyon kesa masaktan pa ako sana wala na akong kasamang tao sana wala nang nakakakita sa akin para madali na ang lahat ang gulo guloguglo gulo masaya ako at unti lang kaibigan ko dahil balang araw iiwan din nila ako mangyayari at mangyayari iyon walang taong makakaintindi sa akin kahit kailan kasi kahit ako hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko walang taong magugustuhan ako dahil di nga nila ako maiiintindihan naiinis ako sa lahat lalo na sa akin hanggang ngayon tinatanong ko sa sarili ko kung ano ang ginagawa ko rito sana nalang hindi ako narito aksidente man ako o hindi sana nalang hindi na ako narito naguguluhan na ako wala niisang ginagawa ko ngayon ang nakakatulong sa pinoproblema ko kung ano man ang pinoproblema ko........ano ba pinoproblema ko hindi ko alam malakas topak ko sana narin hindi na ako nakakaramdam sana puro utak nalang gumagana sa akin ayoko na makaramdam ng mga ganito mas mapapadali ang buhay ko kapag wala na akong emosyon napakawalang kwenta ko nakakabwisit naiinis ako sobra sa sarili ko




naiinis ako.. ang bait bait ng mga kaibigan ko ang saya ko may kaibigan pa ako mahal na mahal ko sila sana di sila mawala agad sa akin.....natatakot ako

when some plans don't go according to what i want it to be, either simple or not.. i most of the time cry about it. not it really helps me solve my problems, it somehow eases the pain. it just naturally happens and it shows how weak i really am.

Stayed up late again but this time it's different because finally, i did some drawing! I am proud of myself!!...a little. I havent drawn like this since last year i think. I can't even remember because it was too long ago. If only i could stop sulking and whining everything about my drawing and start doing things like this coz it would really help. meh, but I rarely listen to myself. HURR.

too lazy to scan so i just took a picture of it.

I don't own that character, it's Andrew Hussie's Karkat. :)

It's finally happening! right? :D

SO IT'S FINALLY WEDNESDAY. OH MOTHER OF GRUBS. I AM SO HAPPY, SO --------EXCIT-ED!! On Saturday, i'll be leaving home early so i can arrive at my friend's place at morning. I CAN'T WAIT OH MY GOG. We are going to cosplay the beta kids from Homestuck! I am so happy.. WE are so happy that finally this shit is going to happen soon! I am going to cosplay John and Lemon will cosplay as Dave then Younri will cosplay as Jade. Too bad we don't have a Rose. Our Rose can't come because of problems i guess. And some friends we hardly have any contact.

OKAY. I kind of had a hard time convincing mom without her nagging at me but in the end she allowed me to go. THANKS MOM! :(

So, This will be my first trip ALONE on the way to Manila. I am not really scared right now.. i bet my legs will be shaking when i finally get to ride a bus to Cubao. I guess, it is time for me to be independent?

There is this cosplay event on SMX convention center called VOCAFUSION. It is my first time attending to a Con also. And woohoo me, i dont even know much about vocaloids except for the first set of synthesizer dudes like Miku and Len. There's something about Nico Nico Douga. I kept hearing them from my friends and youtube, i dont know maybe those people are in that event? All i am after are the cosplayers and that we get to cosplay finally. ( I AM GOING TO LOOK FOR HETALIA COSPLAYERS ) My friend was the one who bought us tickets, because i am poor and can't even afford a P200 worth tickets. I MEAN WTF. THAT'S EXPENSIVE FOR A TICKET. WHHYYYYY. Sorry i can't handle prices like that. i am really cheap i know.

And we kept on talking on and on about this and made some plans:

• arriving in Manila early ( I HOPE LEMON BRINGS ME TO HER SCHOOL, UST D: )
• going to stay at her condo for 3 days and 2 nights. I mean whoa, mom actually allowed me for that long. O.O
• going to watch The Ring 3D on theaters? well crap, i cant even watch the trailers on youtube! WHHHY YOUNRI D:
• going to watch movies on LEMON's place. John asked for it.
• going to survive at LEMON's condo without food
• going to make horns for Karkat and Terezi. I hope there's more time.
• I WANT TO EXPLORE SM NORTH EDSA!!
• going to wear all my HS shirts
• PARTY AT VOCAFUSIONNNN! wooooo I wonder if LEMON's bro is really going to be BRO?
• on Monday, LEMON will surely bring me to her school! YAY but i have to wait for her since it's her summer finals at that day. Going to help myself get lost in her HUGE school then!
• going to buy souvenirs from UST! woo!
• taking a lot of pictures! too bad i cant bring my DSLR. It's fine with me since our digicam is really awesome as DSLR too! though i need disposable batteries :(
• sad part is i'll be leaving on monday at afternoon to avoid rush hours :(

I hope i have a lot of good time! I need to get out of this city once in a while and reunite with old friends. Because my "friends" here in this city sucks hardcore bone bulge.

I really hope we can do all the things listed above~! And i hope i have a safe trip! God please guide me all the way!<3

Hiya

So i am thinking of updating my blog here. And i am confused with the new look of this site.

I am currently finding my way out of boredom and blogging is my last resort. And i dont even know what to write here. All i know is I am emotionally hurt and i cant get over with things at the moment. I hate it. Negative thoughts wont stop evading my mind. Confidence and self-esteem are going from 10 out of 100 to negative infinite. I kept thinking that "I dont deserve people, i am annoying as fuck why do i have to live, i am better off alone or must be best for me to just disappear, why is this happening to me every school year.. people are not the problem and it is me." etc.etc. BLUH BLUH.

I really dont know what to do right now. After this month, school will start again and I am going to see those people. I would rather be alone because everyone dont know me than being alone because everyone is avoiding me. It's kind of hard that I am socially inactive, not really. I mean I am shy and dont really spread my human wings and flutter it around people i just met. It's a little hard for me to adjust. I always start low with people. I don't know, I sometimes am talkative when talking to some people. I mean.. now that i think about it. I REALLY DONT KNOW. Depends on the people im talking to? Depends on my mood? Depends on the weather?

Im sorry i am currently experiencing complications with me and my thoughts right now. :))

We dont get along pretty well.

Anyway, all I want to happen this next semester is find true friends that will make me happy, make me know that they are always there, someone i can truly trust and people who will trust me back, some people who will stay by my side forever?? LOL. Forever never lasts. I think. Let's not make an assurance. Someone who will stay by my side. I wish i can make a group of friends that i can love in this place. (my friends are all faraway. they are the only one's left now. i feel so alone lol)

Oh and I accidentally followed myself on this site. Hahaha, i got confused with this new blog look. But i wont unfollow myself. I am the 3rd follower of my not-so-active blog! :D

hooray for pizzas!

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